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わたくしはできるだけちちなぐさめて自分じぶんつくえいてあるところかえった。私はらした書物しょもつあいだすわって心細こころぼそそうな父の態度たいど言葉ことばとを、幾度いくたびかえながめた。私はそのときまたせみこえいた。その声はこの間中あいだじゅう聞いたのとちがってつくつく法師ぼうしの声であった。私はなつ郷里きょうりに帰って、ような蝉の声のなかじっ坐っていると、へんかなしい心持こころもちになることがしばしばあった。私の哀愁あいしゅうはいつもこのむしはげしいともこころそこようにかんぜられた。私はそんな時にはいつもうごかずに一人ひとり一人ひとり見詰みつめていた。

私の哀愁はこの夏帰省きしょうした以後いご次第しだい情調じょうちょうえて油蝉あぶらぜみの声がつくつく法師の声にかわごとくに、私をひと運命うんめいが、おおきな輪廻りんねのうちに、そろそろ動いているようにおもわれた。私はさびしそうな父の態度と言葉を繰り返しながら、手紙てがみして返事へんじこさない先生せんせいの事をまたおもうかべた。先生と父とは、まるで反対はんたい印象いんしょうを私にあたえるてんにおいて、比較ひかくうえにも連想れんそうの上にも、いっしょに私のあたまのぼりやすかった

私はほとんど父のすべてもつくしていた。もし父をはなれるとすれば、情合じょうあいの上に親子おやこ心残こころのこがあるだけであった。先生のおおはまだ私にわかっていなかったはな約束やくそくされたその人の過去かこもまだ聞く機会きかいずにいた。ようするに先生は私にとって薄暗うすぐらかった。私はぜひともそこをとおしてあかるい所までかなければまなかった。先生と関係かんけいえるのは私にとっておおいな苦痛くつうであった。私はははもらって、東京とうきょう日取ひどめた

Rough translation

I did my best to console my father and then went back to where my desk was. Sitting among my scattered books, I replayed in my mind his forlorn look and rueful words. I heard again the chirping of the cicadas, but the sound was different than before. It was now the "tsuku-tsuku" sound of a different variety. Whenever I'd returned home in summertime and sat quietly among the seething sound of cicadas, I was often struck by a strange melancholy. It was a sorrow that, wrapped in the fervent cries of these insects, permeated my soul to its core. In such times I'd remain still and think back on my life.

This summer, the sorrows I'd felt since returning had gradually shifted in tone. Like the voices of different cicadas, one giving way to the next, I pictured the fates of those who were close to me, steadily treading a grand cycle of death and rebirth. While reflecting on the lonely words and lonely look of my father, I also thought of Sensei, who had left my letters unanswered. The impressions in my mind of Sensei and my father were extreme opposites, but whether for purpose of comparison or through stream of consciousness, I would often think of them together.

I was intimately familiar with my father. If I saw him no more, then my regret would be merely that of a child missing a parent. Sensei was largely unknown to me still. He'd promised to share his past but had not yet done so. In short, he was a figure in the dark. I couldn't be content, I felt, until I'd pulled him into the light. The thought of losing him distressed me greatly. I consulted with my mother, and we chose a day for my departure for Tōkyō.

Vocabulary

わたくし I; meちち fatherなぐさめて comfort; console自分じぶんの one's ownつくえ desk; study tableいて set; placeところ place; locationかえった returned (to)らした scattered about; strewn about書物しょもつ booksあいだに amongすわって sit; sit down心細こころぼそそうな (looking) lonely; forlorn態度たいど manner; mood言葉ことば words幾度いくたびか any number of times; repeatedlyかえながめた replayed in one's mindとき time; momentせみこえ the chirping of cicadasいた heardこの間中あいだじゅう these days; recent daysちがって differentつくつく法師ぼうし tsukutsukubōshi (specific type of cicada)なつ summer; summertime郷里きょうり native place; home townく seethe; churn; surgeなか middle; midstじっと fixedly; intentlyへんに oddly; strangelyかなしい sad; subdued; melancholy心持こころもち feeling; moodこと case; instance哀愁あいしゅう sorrowむし insectsはげしい fervent; intense soundともに together with; accompanied byこころそこに depths of one's heart; core of one's soulむ penetrate; permeateかんぜられた felt; perceivedうごかずに without moving; quietly一人ひとりで alone; by oneself一人ひとり oneself見詰みつめて look hard at; contemplate 帰省きしょうした returned home以後いご after; since次第しだいに gradually情調じょうちょう tone; nuanceえてた changed油蝉あぶらぜみ aburazemi (type of cicada)かわる change; transition (to)く surround; encloseひと people; persons運命うんめい destiny; fateおおきな large輪廻りんね (Buddhist) cycle of death and rebirthそろそろ slowly; steadilyおもわれた seemedさびしそうな lonesome; solitary手紙てがみ letterして put out; send返事へんじ reply; responseこさない not send先生せんせい Sensei (elder one; teacher - used here as form of address)おもうかべた called to mind; remembered反対はんたい opposite印象いんしょう impressionあたえる give; impart (to)てん point比較ひかく comparisonうえにも in regard to; on occasion of連想れんそう associationあたま head; mindのぼりやすかった came up easily つくして know thoroughly; know inside and outはなれる be separated from情合じょうあい (shared) sentiment親子おやこ parent and child心残こころのこり regretおおく many; much; mostわかっていなかった was not knownはなす convey; relate約束やくそくされた had been promised過去かこ past; history機会きかい opportunity; chanceずに without attainingようするに in short; at the end of the day薄暗うすぐらかった dimly lit; obscureとおして get past; move beyondあかるい bright; illuminatedかなければ if not progressing (to)まなかった would not be satisfied; could not be content関係かんけい connection; relationshipえる be discontinued; be cut offおおいな great; significant苦痛くつう hurt; pangはは mother dayて look at; assess; judge東京とうきょう Tōkyōつ set out; depart (for)日取ひどり appointed dayめた set; decided on; chose