Father was clearly apprehensive about his health. However, he was not one to pester the doctor with pointless questions. The doctor, for his part, refrained from belaboring the situation.
Father, it seemed, was considering our lives without him. At the very least, he was considering the fate of his household.
"Educating one's children is both good and bad. You work to provide them with schooling, and it's guaranteed they won't stay home. Higher learning is an expedient for dissolving one's family."
My older brother's education had drawn him far away. The result of my own education was a firm resolve to reside in Tōkyō. Father's grumblings on this account were not unjustified. The idea of my mother left alone in this old country house to fend for herself clearly unsettled him.
Father firmly believed that his household was rooted in place. He also believed that my mother would remain there for all of her days. He worried greatly for her, left alone to care for the large house without him. At the same time, he urged me to secure a prominent position in Tōkyō. His inconsistency afforded me the chance to return to Tōkyō, and for this I was grateful.
Before my parents, I did my best to feign an effort at securing a prominent post. I wrote to Sensei and explained the situation at home. I asked if he couldn't, through his connections, mediate any sort of position on my behalf. Even as I penned my request, I didn't expect he would act. Even if he wanted to, I thought as I wrote, he had no network to draw on. I did expect, however, that this letter must certainly merit a response.